I’m sipping at the second day of cold brew coffee. Amazed at the difference in flavor…no bitterness to have to overcome w/ cream. Added organic, grass fed Ghee and High Octane Brain Oil (MCT oil) and less than a Tbs of maple syrup. I’ve added maple syrup to my nutrition. High in minerals, it’s supposed to help stabilize blood sugars. I didn’t think so when fasting tests were over 100…but, this week and last nearly all have been in the 80’s. Whooo Hooo. I came home from FL weighing the same as when I went. Good but hoped to lose wt. Didn’t do anything though to make that happen. Have NOT done anything since we got home either, but have lost 2 lbs! Another Whoo hoo. 1/3rd of what needs to be gone. Slow and steady wins the race eh?

An interesting observation, that I can’t figure out yet….While traveling this Fibromyalgia body hurts. It hurts more than the usual head to toe aching. Getting in and out of the car, like when we are in Holmes county making our rounds to the Thrift stores…3 or 4 in a day…at the day’s end I feel like I’ve been mauled by a bear, or like I have the flu….every day. We got home Saturday….aching miserably, feeling the best sitting very still but then getting up stiff and achey. Saturday night’s sleep broken and un-refreshing because changing position woke me up…it hurt to move. Sunday was an achy day and I concluded it was just body rebellion returning to the cold damp north, I’d get used to it and move on. Monday morning however…I got out of bed and went through the day with minimal distress. Managed to pull off some honest to goodness work! And at the end of the day, tired, legs hurt (those varicose veins!!!) when compression stockings removed but…not that traveling head to toe maxed out aching. How can I sit still in a car for hours on end and feel like I’ve baled hay for 18 hours!!!! I just wonder. And that makes me think….

Psa 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

I DO praise God. This human body, an amazingly created machine, is a wonder. He extends grace to cause me to learn what I need to know to move forward in His plan and purpose in spite of myself! Every day is a new day and I’m ever so thankful for that. Some of MY 24 hours can get pretty ugly by my own doings. Even though I intend to operate within the scope of His direction I seem to manage so many rabbit trails and off road (offHis road) diversions too many times during the day.

There have been enough young children in my life to remind me that I am God’s little child, needing a lot of His gentle (sometimes NOT so gentle) prodding and guiding to keep me moving forward in His plan.

I’ve decided that if the Lyme treatment (to start tomorrow if the pharmacy can make it affordable!) doesn’t work to eliminate or minimize the brain fog and aching, it’ll be OK. I’ve figured out what works and what doesn’t and how to live life within the constraints of those limitations. How to say no when I have to and stop doing what makes me feel worse until I can feel better. If that’s how the tapestry of my life is woven it’ll be OK. God IS good, He IS right all the time, I have no doubt whatsoever that I am His (foolish little child that I am) and the path He has carved for me in this world is for His plan and purpose to be worked out in me, for Him to be seen in me. (Not for my comfort or leisure, pleasure or self absorbed “happiness”) Life experiences…the ingredients …. to be blended together to make His will worked out in me.
How are you fearfully and wonderfully made? Do you see it? Better yet, can you agree to let God blend those ingredients in YOUR life to create in you the creature He wants you to be? As a wise daughter reminds me….”Life is about choices”…. Praying you have a happy, no, JOY-filled day.